Harry Potter, Disney, Star Wars, Johnny Depp, Batman, and my other geeky pleasures
Everyone I know has something amazing in their life happening.
I’m 19, my best friend (who’s only 26 days older than me) is happily married with a beautiful baby girl.
Another friend of mine from high school (who’s a year younger than me) is getting married at the end of next month.
I got accepted to a community college. I stayed for one year, my major changed three times and I dropped out of three classes in the process.
I never went back last fall, and now I’m kinda of floating toward another school but I can’t fully enroll because it’s too far away to drive to, there’s no student housing and I have to bust my butt to be able to afford a place near the school.
I’ve been trying for about six months to move out of my parent’s house and kind of discover who I am and what I want because I honestly feel so suffocated at home.
I got demoted at work and I have potential for so much more but no one will hire me.
The only thing I’m honestly proud of in my own life is the amazing man I call my boyfriend. He’s been the light of my life for the past year and I don’t know where I would be if he wasn’t in my life. He lives two hours away, though, and it makes me feel so God damn lonely without him sometimes.
Honest to God, I feel so disconnected from life sometimes. Like everybody else has this drive to their life when they wake up in the morning and I literally just sit and wait for things to start lining up form me.
I mean, I’m not depressed or suicidal or anything…just so frustrated with my lack of motion in life.
I’m sorry for my sob story and if nobody even reads this, that’s fine. I just needed to get this all out.